I started this blog over a year ago because the practice of running was such a sensory experience for me I wanted to capture what was happening and share it. At first I put down all my running sessions in a loose sort of log, and tried to write down the thoughts that opened up in me as I learned to run longer distances, live with the elements. I found running to be spiritually nurturing. I definitely had to call upon God when I ran, and remember that it was through God that I could do anything. My blogs became more general and opened up to other experiences, particularly spiritual ones.
When I finally let go of the goal of running in the marathon in 2011, due to injury, and lack of time to train. I got up to 16 miles in a long run, but my goal of 20 miles the next long run ended after 10 painful miles with a heel spur. I found I could no longer blog perhaps because my blog was so wrapped in my marathon aspiration. I did share my entry about my mentor, but it had led people this site who could learn my identity, and some of the most private things I shared about my relationship. This scared me from blogging further, and I removed my triumphant post about Grete’s Great Gallop 1/2 marathon, because it would have definitely revealed me.
I don’t know if this is a goodby to this blog, as I write all this, or a reaffimation to continue. I did not do a ‘post a day’ or even a week. I am so thankful to this blog, and I am thankful that I am still running, although very short distances now. It is a season for me of letting go, of slowing down. I have a few days off, I hope to come back to my relationship with this blog and myself. I thank my subscribers and wish them joy in this New Year.