5 K uphill in the beginning around Skidmore College on December 31. In the cold. This is probably the biggest challenge for me. And for the next few days, working late. I can’t seem to run early. I will run tonight no matter how late I get out. The race itself is at 5:30 pm, so it is good training. Mondays will always be a ‘rest’ day–because I teach after my 9-5 until 9 pm. And I am finding it exhausting. So no mileage yet this week..
Hate–I have talked about hating running and although I didn’t say it I hate the cold. Why am I trying something that I have previously been so adverse to? What am I going for?
My middle age has been as blessed as the rest of my life–I have a good job, a relationship, I am looking at the world with spirit, for the most part. But, I am after all, middle-aged. I do occasionally look up sites to determine the price of week-end facelifts. I can’t believe that I can’t lose this belly-fat.
I made a commitment to myself not to go under the knife until I was eating, sleeping and exercising to such an extent that I knew what my natural best looked (and felt) like. I couldn’t say I knew that anymore.
I went back to being an almost-vegan (sorry, I still wear silk and eat honey, and occasionally, I will have a piece of birthday cake) but animal products are by and large off my table. But one can still find a way to really binge on processed plant food and still feel almost virtuous.
And I started running again. It was as always, painful at first. But I knew that if I could get back to the point I was a few years previously, that I would breakthrough the resistance and surprise myself.
Setting a goal for the marathon excited me. It is so out of my league. But one race at a time, I am going to do everything I can to make it happen. I am no longer looking at plastic surgery sites, I am trying to figure out how I determine my pace, and what 85% of my target heart rate should be. It’s one of those pursuits that teaches me about myself. I think it is the one large goal I have ever made that is entirely self-motivated. I won’t get a raise or a promotion or tenure or anything. Let’s see if I can do it…